It is amazing the small decisions that can really change your life, your mood, everything. No matter where you are, there are decisions you can make. Sometimes we are surviving in the moment and the decision to survive is all we have. If you are in that place today, know that it can change, I am proof of that.
Yesterday my family went off to volunteer at a Triathlon for the disabled. I did not go as mommy really needed a just me day as I can’t remember the last time I had one of those, if you are able to make one of those happen, do it, even if you can’t have a full day, take what you can get, sometimes an hour or two can change your outlook and mood.
While my family was off doing good in the world, I was home thinking of how I could do good for Rebecca.
I had been struggling recently as I had been on pretty much bed-rest for 4-5 months with migraine associated vertigo, never heard of it, great, you don’t’ want to.
It is basically a thief that slowly steals your life and sentences you to dark rooms, headaches and sunglasses pretty much 24-7 with the bonus of feeling like you are on a very fast merry go round!
The good news is that I was able to return to somewhat of my normal life a little over a month ago but I have not been able to get back any of the focus I had before then.
Most days I was going through the motions of what needed to be done but wasn’t writing which is my biggest passion, of course I was thinking about writing because that is what I do, I think too much and often struggle to get out of my own head.
Well today was a different day mentally and I really don’t think this would have happened if I had been surrounded by others, the silence and solitude helped bring out a change.
I slept late because next to writing and my grandson, sleeping is my favorite thing to do.
Not long after being up today I had that normal urge to write, the one I usually push down as it doesn’t’ seem as important as other things like cleaning the house, but today was different, I put my laptop on my bed and began doing some writing, nothing here just some other projects that began to get the juices flowing.
I hear of writers that don’t know what to write about but I never seem to run out of ideas, I just run out of the follow through to put the words on paper and sometimes to just hit publish.
After a little bit of writing I put Youtube on my tv from my phone, which I love to do and the video I wrote about yesterday that talked about how counting down from 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 can change your life. The fact that I had gotten the juices flowing and then seeing a video that inspired me prompted the post from yesterday. You have a 5 second window to change your life, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 …
Once I felt I had filled that void I had in me for sometime, I went to the pool where we live, they had just redone this area and put in those large cabanas like at a resort and I was the only one there on a beautiful Sunday afternoon, had there been someone bringing me cold drinks on demand, it would have been Heaven.
Actually it was, I took a nice dip just to cool off then I laid on the biggest bed and spread out. I listened to Pink and worked on a much needed tan.
Soon after my guy and girl came home, tired as could be. Unlike me, they worked very hard today, they gave out water and cold towels and assisted those that needed assistance to medical after a long hot Triathlon.
They came home with amazing pictures of people that looked like they had all odds against them but never let it stop them, it was very inspiring.
Back to my reason for writing today, this is now Monday and I was able to get up earlier, get a few things done and sit down here to write this, it may encourage you to take some time to yourself, it may not.
Having that one day to myself yesterday (which did not included chores) has helped to jump start my productivity again, something I have been trying to get back for months.
Again, it is the little things that matter and the little decisions that can change your life. I am all about changing your life by changing your focus and that is so true for me. You get what you focus on, stop focusing on what you can’t change.
I had often focused on a horrible past as it seemed to have such a strong hold on me as though I had never really gotten free.
Funny as I reread this for errors I wonder if I write all of this just for me, to remind myself of what is important. Writing is an amazing gift to give yourself, it is sometimes like a therapist but much cheaper.
I highly encourage you to write, even if you do not want to share it with the world you can journal privately.
Ladies, it is time to be free, if you are out of the violence and struggling to heal find some rituals that can quickly bring you back to this minute and what you want moving forward.
This was one of the hardest things for me and at times still is today but each day is that fresh start to create the life you want. How that ritual cup of coffee can help you stay Committed & Focused!
I would love to hear what you did or are doing now to get past your past. What did you do to move forward and heal? Have you drastically changed your life for the better? If so, please share your story for others, stories that encourage can change another life.
May you get a few minutes silence and solitude today.
Love & Peace,